Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Six years old

He is six years old today. 

Most days I'm ok, but today the memories are getting the best of me. I have so much anger, and sadness, and regret....but then....I remember how great his life is right now and it settles my heart. 

My mind takes me back to "birth day. " there was much excitement in the air. We had all come to love the family that would soon take the roll of mom and dad to my son. I had family and friends around me. I was showered with gifts, and I had a pretty darn good epidural going, so things didn't seem so bad. I thought "I can handle this." And guess what? I did handle it, but it was so dang hard. 

After he was born we all held him and admired his beautiful features and his massive amount of hair. He had these dark eyes that were almost black in color. His hair stuck up in the air like it had hell in it. It was adorable. 

The fun ended that day when the adoption agency's representative came in and said it was time for me to sign the papers. I had him in my arms when I signed away my parental rights. I couldn't keep myself calmed down. The tears flowed and flowed. And then, it was time to leave. I watched as his new mom and dad carefully placed him in their car seat and buckled him in for the first time. I remember being so happy that they were experiencing parenthood and all the fun "firsts." 

We all were escorted out of the hospital at the same exit, and into the same parking lot. There was just one difference...try were going home with a baby, and I was not...and it was all by choice.  I felt sick to my stomach and thought I might loose it in the parking lot, but I held it together for the drive home.

That was six years ago and the memories are so vivid. The pain is stil so real, but there are a few things that have changed. I'm not the same person as I was six years ago. I think I have gained so much within myself. I have been able to deal with the circumstances that made me a birthmom, and I'm ok with it. I made the best decision I could for my son. He has a good life and we have a wonderful open relationship. Hard times defiantly shape us and make us grow.  I'm in a good place now, but I will never forget the pain of the past because it makes me who I am today. 

Friday, May 29, 2015

Headband Review

You can find Owl Be Sweatin headbands at www.owlbesweatin.com Use code Rebekahb15 for a 15% discount. I do not sell these, I only promote them because I love them. Check out my video below.


Thursday, April 9, 2015

My second weight loss challenge group starting soon.....


I am starting another online accountability weight loss challenge group and I have a few spots open!! It officially starts on April 27th. 

My first group has a couple weeks left and I'm gearing up for the next one!! By the way, one of my girls has already lost 6 pounds and they are only two weeks in!! THAT'S INCREDIBLE!

This group is designed to teach you how to live a healthy lifestyle by learning portion control, eating the right kinds of foods, and also short intense workouts that will get you results!

There is a financial investment required (to make sure you have ALL the tools you need to SERIOUSLY rock this,) but there are a range of options, so I am sure we will find something to fit YOUR budget needs.

This is a LIFESTYLE change, not a QUICK fix. I have lost 133 pounds by changing my habits and practicing them every day. I want to pay it forward and help others reach their goals.

Respond to this invitation if you are serious about changing your life and getting healthier. This is an investment in YOU and YOUR future. I cant wait to work with you!!





If you are interested you have several ways of contacting me below:

1. Email=RebekahB1975@yahoo.com
2. Facebook=https://www.facebook.com/rebekah.warebass
3. My facebook fan page: https://www.facebook.com/FindingmyskinnyBeachbody



Rebekah

Monday, March 23, 2015

Get fit with Rebekah!!


I am so excited to invite you all to my "Get Fit With Rebekah" challenge group.

Opening up enrollment for my next fitness and nutrition bootcamp starting March 31st! I am *so* excited for this group! We will focus on proper nutrition eating whole, nutrient dense foods; short, intense workouts that will guarantee results; and working on making this a LIFESTYLE change, not just a crazy quick fix. I only take a few new clients a month, so if you have been looking to get started, now is the time!

There is a financial investment required (to make sure you have all of the tools you need to seriously rock this), but there is a range of options, so I am sure we will find something to fit with YOUR budget and needs.
 
Lets get healthy inside and out together. I'm so excited to walk beside you as your coach.


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Sunday, March 22, 2015

Tyrus

Rebekah posted this picture of Tyrus today. It literally stopped me in my tracks. Where did his baby chub unless go? You know that baby fat that kinda follows them into toddlerhood, until they eventually start growing up and start thinning out? He is way past that. The last time I held him he was still a little squshy and little and toddleish, but this picture clearly shows how big and grown up he is. When we talk on the phone he is so sweet. He talks very fast and I can tell he has so much to tell me but just can't say it fast enough. My heart longs to be with him, but I am so happy to see him doing so well. He sent me some pictures through the mail about a month ago. 
I cherish these pictures and will keep them forever. 

My cousin recently brought to my attention an article that was written way back after Tyrus was born. The writer of the article interviewed me and Tyrus's mom. I think they did a wonderful job of depicting my side of adoption and also Rebekah's side of adoption. Unfortunately,  they had to close the article down from any further comments because a war was started. It seems that some of the people that were commenting disagreed with my decision to give Tyrus up for adoption. Their view on my life was that I could have raised him, and I should not have given him up for adoption, and I hurt on my children by making the choice not to parent my sweet boy. And although I do respect everyone's opinion, and I do miss my son, things are how they are supposed to be. Tyrus belongs with Rebekah and Ben. Tyrus will always be the brother of my children. But if I didn't choose to give him up for adoption, Rebekah and Ben would not of had the pleasure of being his parents, and Tyrus's new brothers and sister would not have the best brother ever. To God be the glory. Things are how they should be.