Would God take it all away?

I prayed for so long for my husband. I love my new life. I can't believe that it could possibly be taken all away from me...just...like...that. 

Is it true that God protectects? Maybe He is protecting Skyler by possibly taking it all away. 

Why does Skyler have to have autism? Why does his disability have to come with such sexual curiosities? Why does my life always have to come to some damn crossroad? The moment I think it's going well, then something stomps me down. 

I hope this isn't the end of something I thought was beautiful in my life. 

I have to make a back up plan....again. 

I feel like my life is just a big running game of survival!!

I just want to SCREAM!!