SUCH GOOD NEWS!!!

I just have to write about this. I have not been able to get ahold of Rebekah and Ben but I will soon because I left them a message.

I just got a call from the agency. Apparently the birth father (Ron) has been located and served and has CALLED the attorney. She said he was very nice and very cooperative. I am still processing this information because this has been haunting me for a LONG time. She said that he wants to talk to me and make sure that this is something I truly want to do. He said that he knows I have a lot of kids and that it would probably be to much for him. He would like to talk to the adoptive parents and maybe get pictures and updates of some sort? I don't know how that is all going to work but that part of it all I will leave to the agency to work out. I will not be a part of that.

I don't have the birth fathers phone number. I long ago discarded it because my daughter kept calling him and I just wanted it out of the house. I am waiting for the agency to leave me a text with the phone number to Ron and I will call him per his request. I am really excited about this and I am looking forward to telling him "YES, THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO DO."

Ill keep you posted.

Your killen me kid!!!

Those were the exact words of the cardiologist today when my son (the three year old) was taking paper clips and hiding them under the bed in his office. I got the feeling that he didn't have kids so I asked him if he did. His response was "I do but they usually just chill like your other son." LOL It was so hard for me to sit and listen to him while at the same time watch my little guy. He kept telling Skyler to sit down. So Skyler would sit down, give the doctor a high five....and then get back up again. He particularly liked playing with the model of the plastic plaque filled heart vesicle sitting on the desk. At least this doctor didn't have any fake vagina's sitting around. I figure a heart vesicle was better then a vagina. (grin)

Anyway, I did make it through the appointment with my three youngest kids despite having to UNDRESS my top and go through another EKG, in which the lady had to do a few times because of all the kids in the room. HOOOO HUMMM!!! Such is life.

The GOOD news is that I suffer (in short) from a very fast heartbeat in my upper heart. There is nothing that can be done except to stay hydrated and take my blood pressure medication. My condition is not one that is hurting the baby or myself and in the future I might need to undergo an ablation. I am not sure I spelled that right and if you don't know what that is you can look it up because I am not all together sure myself. So for the time being, it should not affect the baby or myself and we will basically deal with it in six to eight weeks after baby is born.

My moms surgery went well. We went to see her again today. They had her up and sitting on the side of the bed and that went well. I am amazed at what these doctors can do. Before the surgery I was able to meet moms doctor and shake his hand and I thought "these hands will be in my mom soon." And I was amazed at the handy work they do on peoples bodies. Its shocking. (in a good way) Please still pray for a good recovery for my mom.

My next OB appointment will be Friday.

The kids leave Sunday, HOLY COW, which is just a few days away.

Today we went to check the mail and we had a package from Rebekah and Ben. Victoria and Matthew were squealing with glee. We ran home to get open it and found a present for Skyler which was a four or five pack of cars. At this moment it is the best gift a mom can get because he will be occupied with it for a few hours. THANK YOU SO MUCH R AND B. For the other kids came a big summer beach bag full of all kinds of goodies for the kids on the airplane this Sunday. How thoughtful can two people be? I am so thankful. It had games and fun rubber balls and bracelets and candy and chips...pretty much everything a kid would want for a trip. HOW EXCITING!!! Thank you so much.

So, I am going to be brave today and post a picture of (half) of my bare belly. You will see my stretch marks, which are my badges of honor for having all these kids. It is not glamorous or pretty, but I do have a bit of pride for this little one inside and I wanted to show him off while I have him. Soon we will be waiting for pictures of him from his momma and daddy, so for now its my turn.

Rain drops keep falling on my head.....

Its a BEAUTIFUL rainy day today. I love rainy days. It makes me happy. I'm sitting here at the computer with my window open listening to the rain and smelling its fresh scent. My kids are completely content in our little three bedroom apartment, doing there own things and its just been a wonderful day.

We have no plans of anyone joining us for a Memorial day BBQ, I am just completely satisfied spending the day with my four Big/little kids.

We got fixing's for a yummy fruit salad, topped with cool whip, sub sandwiches and iced tea. Its a good day.

On the pregnancy front, I am not doing so good. My spirits are very very high and I am happy as a lark, but my body is doing poorly. LOL All of this of course is normal pregnancy related stuff but it sure is uncomfortable.

I was trying to get some video of my belly while baby boy was moving...but my little Skyler kept coming over and rubbing my belly saying "baby in there?" So sweet. Ill keep working on those videos and see if I cant get a good one.

Tomorrow my mom goes into MAJOR back surgery. My sister is coming over and watching the three kids that WONT be in school while I go to the hospital. We will take turns being with my mom. Please pray that my moms surgery is successful and it will get her out of this pain she has been living with for almost a year. She already struggles with Multiple Sclerosis so the added back problems are just terrible for her. I will be at the hospital most of the day but I will have my moms blackberry, which has Internet access. BONUS!!!!!!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Memorial day. I know I am. (wink)

Not the most elegant post!!

This post is not going to be funny or witty or anything. I just thought I would sit and document how I was feeling. I am not depressed or sad, but my body feels that way. UGGGG!! I want to make sure just to document all that I can for the pregnancy so I will remember.

I have SOOO much to do. Tomorrow is my moms birthday and we are celebrating tonight. I have so much on my mind that I want to get accomplished but I just cant manage to do it. I did however get the kitchen really really clean, to the point where I couldn't stop looking at it. Do you ever do that? It was so clean that I just wanted to stare at it. LOL Weird hugh? I also went to drop off my "sample" from my 24 hour test that I had to do to test how much protein is in my AHEM urine. Nasty hugh? After that I did manage to go to Walmart. It was not like I had to get a lot of stuff, but I do not walk fast anymore, in fact its kinda like watching an elephant walk, very slow, very big. UGGGG!!!! So, I slowly walked through Wally world and got what I needed, got home and waited for the kids to bring in the five gallons of milk and everything else.

I did find one BIG treasure at Walmart. I needed some new socks for the hospital in the worst way. So today I decided I was going to splurge and get some socks. I found two five packs of the socks I like (more like footie's) for $2.50 a piece. That's TEN pairs of socks. I feel very rich now that I have so many new socks. SOCKS are MY thing. I LOVE them but they have to be the ankle type or footie's I guess you call them.

So I am feeling just really tired today. I DON'T want to sleep but I feel really drugged and I'm not on drugs. I wanted to get a Mountain Dew for a pick me up but I cant have caffeine with my heart problems. So I am just drinking water and milk. My tail bone is starting to hurt as well so that tells me that baby is getting bigger and may be sitting in a different spot now. It all points to the impending birth. I cant wait.

I am in good spirits. I have nothing to be sad about except that my body is just really hurting. That for me is really hard to deal with especially when I have FOUR kids to care for.

Well I am off to make home made Beef Stroganoff for my moms birthday dinner tonight. I bought the meat already cut so that would cut down some time for myself and my sister made (from scratch) carrot cake for desert. We bought her a really nice Terry cloth robe (a long one) from Bed Bath and Beyond. She will love it, especially since she will be having MAJOR open back surgery this Tuesday. More on that later. I just wanted to post an update.

Hope you all are doing well. Oh and here are some pictures of little Sky jumping on his trampoline this morning. I also threw in one that I took of our dog Maggie this morning. She is so cute. Sorry my pictures are not that great of quality. Some day I will have a camera that does all the fun tricks.

35 weeks!!

Wow time is ticking down now really fast.

I did have a good day. I went to the doctors (ill cover that in a minute) and then I went to Panera bread with my counselor from the agency. It was wonderful to sit and talk to an adult without my kids around. She had her sweet little girl there but I was not responsible for her so it was no problem for me. I had a delicious bowl of cheese and broccoli soup with some unsweetened iced tea. So yummy.

My doctors appointment went OK. There are a few concerns. My EKG that I had done in the hospital the other day (did I blog about that?) came back a bit abnormal. At first they thought that my heart problems were due to anxiety but after further testing it might be a cardiac problem. This does not concern me TO much because it does run in my family and is easily managed; however, I am pregnant (ha ha obviously) and so the baby is the main concern. So the heart thing will be looked at by a cardiologist (as soon as I make an appointment.) :)

The other concern is that I am now spilling protein in my urine (1+ percentage). From what I understand, my 1+ is not enough to be diagnosed as preeclampsic but it is enough to be put through more testing. SOOOO, the rest of the week will involve me going to the lab to get some tests done. Ill let you all know about that. Boring I know.

Baby boy is doing fine. He likes to fall asleep right when I get into the doctors office (he is kicking like crazy in the waiting room) which is not a great thing because he has all these tests he has to pass and when he isn't up and moving around, they beat on my stomach with metal kitchen spoons. Yep, you heard that right people, kitchen spoons. It is meant to see how his heart rate responds to stimulation. So much fun right? LOL

So, all in all it was a good day, but it does show me that time is short, and this is the time in my pregnancy that things start going south. My body does really good until the end, and then it starts pooping out on me. :(

Ill have to talk Rebekah in to glamming up another belly photo so that I can post it here. I just don't look good until she does her special things to it. So what do you think Rebekah? Can you glam up that last one for me?

Have you ever..........?

Have you ever just had one of those days? I'm talking about one of those days that seems to start out perfectly but ends up being crazy and chaotic?

I'm so done today. Everything seems to overwhelm me. I cant think straight, I seem to be just wondering around the apartment looking at everything that needs to be done, and then sitting down again, with nothing getting accomplished.

First thing this morning I put my bra on and it breaks. I blame in on my pregnancy boobs. Its unfortunate because now I am waring a bra that doesn't really fit. Have you ever seen those people that have bras on that don't fit and they have boob spilling over the top of the bra...essentially making four boobs instead of one? Well that would be me today. Embarrassing....OH YEAH!!!

To top off my day I took Chelsea to the dentist because she has been having tooth pain. While I am waiting in the waiting room watching my three year old topple over a one year old, I run over to stop him and then I smell him. No, not the one year old...yes the three year old. So I told the receptionist that I was going to my car to get a diaper and I would be back for the 13 year old in a minute. Yes Yes, I know he should be potty trained but I can seem to get my big pregnant self modivated to do it.

When I get down the elevator to get the diaper I see that my car is lopsided and the rear back tire is COMPLETELY flat. In that moment I told myself that I was NOT going to stress out. Stress has a funny way of creeping up on you though. You can tell yourself to stay calm as much as you can but really, there is nothing you can do about it. I just kept thinking about how hard it was going to be to change a tire at nearly nine months pregnant, and my daddy taught me to change a tire so I know how, but I did decide that I SHOULDN'T change a tire in my condition. Fortunately I did find a sweet friend that was able to come and put the spare on for me just in time for Chelsea to get out of the dentist.

I did get the tire repaired, which in itself was an adventure. Have you ever spent over an hour in a tire repare shop waiting room with a three year old and a thirteen year old? Do you know what is in there? YEP!! A bunch of tires and chairs. I have the thirteen year old mad at me because she wanted to go to school, the three year old sending tires down the waiting room (I'm not kidding) and a man who I think was showing a little to much interest in me and the kids. It was weird. I was glad when he left.

I did eventually get home. And you think that the day would have calmed down, but it didn't. My son (the nine year old) decided it would be fun to move my direct TV satellite dish. I mean come on, WHAT HARM COULD IT DO? (sigh) Yes that's right. On the night that American Idol, and dancing with the stars are premiering for there last performances, I have no television. NONE AT ALL. And I wont until Thursday. I'm not really that upset about it. Those shows are exciting but I use the TV more for comfort then to watch it. It makes me feel like there are adults around and I don't feel so crazy sometimes. Weird I know.

As of now, I do have all four children and one dog in bed. I did manage to get through this day although it was very hard. I am almost certain that these heart problems I am having are due to anxiety. I am having a hard time keeping my heart at a regular beat tonight. The carpets need shampooed, the kitchen floor needs moped, clothes need folded, and the list goes on....but Im going to have to let it go and sit down and rest. Ill tell the doctor about all of this hear stuff tomorrow. I have not heard anything about my 48 hour home heart monitor test.

SURPRISE:

Have I heard anything about my surprise? Nope. The only information I could gleam out of my daughter was that I probably wouldn't know about the surprise for a couple months. Does that mean around the time the baby is born? I have no idea. I don't want to pressure her because someone has asked her to keep trust and I don't want her to break that. Although I know the five dollars I offered her was tempting. LOL

Well I guess that is it for tonight. I will go and find a DVD to watch. The pickings are slim around here as far as our movie collection goes. Oh well. Maybe Ill just blog surf. Good night everyone!!!

I know something you dont know.....

So this is what my thirteen year old said to me before she left for school this morning. "Mom, I just want you to know that I know something thats going to happen to you that you dont know." This does not float well with me because I just dont think anyone should be allowed to have secrets in my presents. I tried to bribe her with five dollars (that I dont have) but she would not waver. She said she absolutely could not tell me what it was but I did get out of her that she received this information through an email this morning. HUMMMMMMMM!!! Now I have no idea. LOL I dont usually get surprises, and I dont have a birthday, and really no reason to celebrate anything. She is such a little stinker, but I am proud of her for keeping someones trust so well.

If I find out Ill let you all know.

For now, I am headed to the hospital to drop off my heart monitor machine and then go look at a new mattress. My mom and Grandma are going to buy me a new mattress because I have in so much pain. YIPPEE!!!