I really hate making big choices. I don't seem to make them very well and I cant seem to make them on my own. Ive been wondering what to do with our living situation for a long time now. We live in a very old apartment complex. Its been upgraded and painted and painted again until I'm sure the walls are two times thicker because of it. I don't really have counter tops because for some reason when ever a new resident moves in...they just put a fresh coat of paint on top of the counter tops. Weird hugh? We are not picky. The reasons we picked this complex over the others was the vast amount of play area. We have seen some hard times here but we have seen some fun times as well. But, we are tired of our over painted walls and counter tops...and climbing the stairs to do laundry. We are ready for an upgrade.
I wanted to buy a house this summer. I have been looking and looking. I got my tax money back and started paying off past due bills...fixing the jeep AGAIN...and buying a few things that we needed. I slowly watched the money that was intended to get into a house dwindle down. Even as I was looking for a new place to "buy" I never felt at peace about it. I just didn't feel like it was the right time. Money kept flying out of my wallet and I just kept thinking "I'm not ready to be financially responsible for a house yet." So here again lies the choices thing again. I don't want to be strapped for cash. So many things play into this. I had to hire a babysitter to "sit" with the kids after school so they wouldn't kill themselves. LOL (which is going wonderfully and well worth the almost two hundred "extra" dollars a month I will be paying).
Another thing that bothers me is my Victoria. She is constantly sick and Im not talking about having colds. She just never feels good. I cant figure it out...and I dont know what to do about it. I can only assume that because she is highly allergic to mold, and this place is full of it, that she isnt doing well here because of it. The sooner I leave...the sooner (in my mind) she will feel better.
After much much thought, I decided (and believe me when I tell you that for me to make a choice on my own without anyone else's opinion is hard) to just upgrade to a better apartment for now. So...in a months time, me and the kids will be moving. We will be living the life of luxury with counter tops that are not painted, our own washer and dryer IN OUR APARTMENT, a fireplace, french doors, after school activities in the office, and vaulted ceilings with ceiling fans. Yes we are ready to be spoiled. (grin) Its only a hundred dollars more a month but I think it will even itself out because of how the utilities are done. We are excited!!!!
I'm not always sure that I make the right decisions, and I am most certain that not everyone will be happy with me, but they are my decisions to make...and make them I did.