10 days! UPDATED!!

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My three big kids leave for Arizona in ten short days. Every year at this time the entire previous year comes crashing down on me. Its funny how you doing REALLY appreciate something until its almost gone. Now I do appreciate my kids but I think in the hum drum of life things become monotone and you just go with the flow. That i until you have ten days left with your kids.

I know, I know. They will be back but that doesn't stop the questions from rolling through my mind. Did I hug them enough? Did I love them enough? Did I kiss them enough? Truly, when you become a mom your life is forever changed. You don't think for yourself, or do for yourself, or be with yourself. Your life completely becomes "for the kids."

I don't mind it. In fact I wanted it. I didn't dream of becoming a movie star or an astronaut. When I dreamed, I dreamed of being a mom. My dreams most certainly came true.

Today I wanted to do a photo shoot with my kids. I'm about to launch a new weight loss blog and it will mirror this blog so I wanted to capture some new pictures of the kids. I had some grand idea that my header would be two pictures...one of the kids all laying on the grass in a circle and I would be above them taking a picture of their smiling faces. The second picture that would sit right beside that one would be me looking over at them. Sigh!! Things don't always go as planned.
After getting this shot...
and this shot....

my idea was scrapped because it was "said" by the children that the sun was to bright and they couldn't open their eyes. Sigh!!

I did manage to catch a few good pictures. I am hoping that soon you will be able to see it on my new weight loss blog!!! Also as an added bonus (I'm so so excited) this blog will also get a new makeover. I am so excited to keep both blogs going. One to document my life as a mom and birth mom and hopefully offer support to others, and the other to document my journey to "finding my skinny," and also offer help and support to others who I know are struggling.

In the meantime, I am trying to enjoy the kids. I realize that every moment is important. I already miss them!