Sunday, October 11, 2009

Always remember....

Its Sunday morning. Skyler and I are the only ones awake. Its very cold outside and I just realized that I fell asleep last night without putting away the HUGE crock pot full of home made chicken soup I made yesterday. I guess I will be cooking again today, I wish I had remembered to put the food away.

Coffee is made, there is a chill in the air and I am just sitting here thinking. I jump over to Rebekah's blog and Im just scanning over old posts. I start thinking back to all I have been through the past year. Her blog catalogs a lot of my journey and I love going back and reading it from her perspective.

I decide to click on this link titled "The call," and I found my self, again, immersed in Rebekahs words.

I remember the day I clicked on her blog for the first time. The first thing that captured me was her eyes, they danced, and I could picture them gazing at my child. I think I knew right away it was them, before I even read a word. It was a feeling, deep down in my gut. I began reading, and looking at pictures. I could see the passion Ben and Rebekah had for each other and I fell instantly in love with them.

Ty is almost four months old. I will never forget and will always remember my journey to find his parents. I will never forget the first time I talked with Rebekah on the phone. I had laryngitis, and I could sense the emotion in her voice. She was holding back in an effort not to freak me out with her excitement. If she could have only known that my excitement and emotion matched hers.

Ill never forget the day I had to say good bye to sweet Ty. As we said our last good bye's and Ben and Rebekah were about to walk out the door, I grabbed Ty's precious tiny foot and kissed it for the last time. I can still feel Rebekahs arms wrapped tightly around me as we both cried...both out of happiness and sadness.

These are moments that shape who I am, the moments that have changed me forever. I will always remember.

8 comments:

Mandy and Jack said...

Sweet post, Rebekah. And I HATE it when I leave food out all night! I feel your pain. :) I do it quite often.

mak'n Changes said...

Girlfriend you have 103 followers! cool!
Good post! I love your heartfelt, soul spilling posts. I love to hear your heart. YOu are good people!

cindie

Anonymous said...

Beautifully said, and very touching for me...a mom who embraces and loves adoption.

Katherine Lang

birthmothertalks said...

I can relate to always remembering the goodbye moment. I can go back there anytime. The pain is so real still. I am happy that you found the perfect parents for your sweet boy.

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

What a sweet post....I love your blog....and come here often...

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

So glad that you stopped by....You should do any giveaway you want...Its your blog...and it is so much fun to give....

Leah said...

It's so amazing to read your story through both of your perspectives. It's a really special experience you are giving to all of us.

Rebekah said...

I'll never forget either! I did a lot of reflecting yesterday, in the backseat, sitting next to Ty on our way home...

He is the best thing that ever happened to me; I couldn't love him more!