Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Last post of the year!

My how time flies. Lets see what I have accomplished this year. LOL I moved out of our friends house and found our own place and have been able to support myself for almost a whole year now. I am proud of that. I have been able to feed and cloth and put a roof over mine and my kids heads for another year. The children have managed not to kill each other. I did not (miracle) loose my mind despite thinking so many many times. I still love the Lord with all my heart and want to be closer to him every day even though that is such a hard task to accomplish. (why is that by the way?)

Lastly, I managed to find the most unworthy, self praising, liar, (I cant think of enough horrible words) of a man, who knocked me up, cheated on me, walked away, and here I sit.

Somehow, this coming year.....I will find joy in my situation. I have to. I will figure out my purpose in this whole mess that I have created. I will become a better person.

Here's to 2009 being a far better year than 2008.


Kriss said...

I'm proud of you!! Everythings going to be ok. I know this baby is a reminder of the hurtful things his/her father did or said to you. Just remember this baby is so very innocent and a complete breathe of heaven. I know your heart is prob. very heavy. Just know you have a friend in me and I am always available if you need to talk. Hugs, kriss

Anonymous said...

isn't it funny how God turns a mistake into the most beautiful miracle? Now your sweet Ty has two moms who love him to death and you and Rebekah have each other.

Anita said...

I just finished reading all of 2008. Your life reads like a good novel. You write so honestly about the hardships of your life and I find myself wanting to know what happens in the next chapter.
I will continue to read your story, especially because I know of its current status that includes joy.
Continued prayers and blessings for you and your family.