Friday, June 5, 2009

12 more days!!!!

That's right. I am scheduled to be induced on the 18th. Twelve days seems SOOOO long, but I know its not. I am doing pretty good today and yesterday. I have all the same discomforts but really, I think I can make it. I look at my belly and it seems HUGE and then I look in the mirror and I KNOW I'm huge. :) I really don't mind though. Its all for a good reason.

I was in the rocking chair the other day and was just slowly rocking and the baby was kicking and I put my hand on my belly and started rocking harder and I realized "Im rocking him." That sounds stupid Hugh because obviously I have been rocking him from the day he was conceived, but for some reason I just had this moment with him that I had not had before. It was special. I only have a short time to take care of him, and right now its so easy to care for him (in a sense). I think its easier to take care of a baby in utro then for them to be out. So I just felt, in that moment, that my job was was so important. I am ready for him to be born though. He just feels gigantic inside of me and its hard just to get dressed with this big belly.

The kids are doing great at there dads house. It feels good not to have to worry about them. Of course my three year old keeps me on my toes, but just to have three kids gone is such a BIG break. I really needed it. Oh and to top it off my mom and grandma have my dog for a few days. WHAT A RELIEF!! She is a sweet little thing but its become hard for me to take her potty three times a day (I live in an apartment).

Well, the nights are long for me because I cant lay in bed. The minute I lay down its such terrible pain in between my legs that I struggle to sit up. I have been sleeping on the recliner and it is not that comfortable but at least I get a few hours of sleep. Good thing I don't require much sleep. :)

Ill try to keep this updated....because time is short.


cc said...

WOW...12 more days! Girl they will fly by.

I'm sorry you are so uncomfortable. I'm praying for you tonight hoping you get more rest than you have been.

I know you miss your older kids but are enjoying the break. Especially since you are feeling the discomforts that come along with pregnancy.

Hey, don't ever think your job in this pregnancy isn't important. You have the most important job of all...bringing this precious baby boy into the world. How awesome (and important) is that?!

It makes me tear up to hear of your 'special moment' of rocking your baby. How sweet.

You are such a sweet caring person.
I'm praying for you. I'm also praying for the adopting parents too.

Sleep well.


LL said...

12 days! Wow!

I can just picture you rocking, laying your hand on you belly. What a sweet image I have in my mind early on a Saturday morning.

Enjoy the relaxation as much as you can. Prayers.

Rebekah said...

You have the MOST important job of all. I will forever remember the image you have painted...rocking your son. It's beautiful...

As I rock his tiny little body at ungodly hours, I will always think of you.

(I've been counting down the days until we leave. It's shorter! Only 7 days left!!! :)

Darcy said...

Checking on you frequently now. Praying for you too!
Have a great weekend.

mak'n Changes said...

Oh becky, I couldn't be more proud. That was the sweetest thing to hear u say ur rocking the little man. You are beautiful! I'm glad u will have a couple weeks to spend with R and B and the baby. It will be good for you. I am forever in love with you cousin! You hold a huge place in my heart.

cc said...

What a cute pic on your blog...I love it.

Lerin said...

Your story about rocking the baby made me tear up too. What a precious moment to share, thank you.